problems never end!!!

hi..last nght i cant sleep well..i dun noe y..mcm2 bnd round in my mind...then sblm tido smlm aku ada kemas2 my stuff la....ngah kemas2 tuh aku da la jumpe satu greetings card yg kwn2 aku bg masa my besday bln MARCH lps...aku buka la..tetiba ja rasa touching sgt..huhu tapii dalam masa yg sm aku rasa juga macam aku ne kdg2 useless..bkn per when we are going out, aku rasa mcm trssh sgt..diaorg ngan bf masing2..aku dah jadi mcm tggul...tapi aku mls nk amek pusing sgt...biarla...hurmm stay kat sini skang pun x best..xde kwn yg blh aku kongsi masalh..x mcm dulu2..sentiasa ada kwan yg slalu sm2 susah sng...huhu...at the time going out last nght, syira asking me whether want to go to dinner or not this friday, but i refuse...huhu hati nk g tapi bla they talk bout nor aku jadi smcm..arghhh!!! aku pun x tau naper...actually im not jeles at all..tapi ntah la..aku sendri x phm ngn keadaan aku skng..suck!! i never have a revenge wit her..but after a few things happened lately i cant being like bfr nemore..dun ask me y???coz i myslf cant find the answer...byk bnd yg diaorg wat kdg2 aku terasa..ada one time tuh masa g pangkor, nor ada la beli souveniour untuk kwn2, kat syira dia bg hp key-chain, fizah pun sm tapi kat aku dia tak bg apa2 pun..actually aku tak harap sgt pun..tapi trs la juga...aku knl dia dh lama blh dikatakan best frend jg la...dr mula2 stdy kat png dulu smpai la skang...but its ok i dun mind, hurmm mcm org ckp la...kwn nie senang nk cari tapi shabat memang susah..tapi aku dah jumper shbt yg btl2 blh pgl shabat..he is the best that i never had....thnks god.